The long and winding road

Well having not had a cigarette or worn a patch for the last week or so things are going well. There are odd occasions still when I think to myself "Oh I'll go and have a cigarette" and then I remember and feel bad for a while. But after a while the feeling passes. I fact writing this now is giving me some pangs of withdrawal.

I am also getting a little down about the fact that in 21 days time I am being made redundant. Now I know that it will enable me to fulfill the dream of going to live in the canaries, but also I will miss a lot of the people I work with here.

I am a little scared about what the future will bring, but also excited about the opportunities ahead.

Possible Future Home

So Far So Good

Well I have not had a cigarette since last Thursday night. It has not been easy the last few days, I have found the worst times to be the mornings and evenings. Saturday night was particularly bad with some minor financial worries and being up late packing boxes.

This morning I had an incident that almost made be buy some cigarettes, I was walking down to the station in the wind and the rain when my foot slipped and I twisted my ankle badly. This was very painful and I struggled to walk for about a hundred meters, While limping down the road my thoughts returned to smoking again, luckily by the time I got to the shop by the station the pain had eased and I was able to control the urge to smoke again.